There is a cost to living and I've paid over and over.

 

“The best thing I ever did was not swim back to the boat. But where was I to go?” — Deborah Levy

Imagine your "defined and comfortable life" as the boat and suddenly, for whatever reason, you are out of the boat and in deep water swimming and you realize that not swimming back to the boat is the right thing to do. But where do you go? How will you define yourself? What or who or where will comfort you? Will you drown? These are the things some people CHOOSE to face. They usually do it after a crisis aka chaos. Most people will swim for the boat. But not Deborah Levy and not me. We float, I think.